I’m Fine

Written by Julie

On January 15, 2022

Go to church ev’ry Sunday,
People always ask “How you doing?”
I always reply, “I’m doing just fine.”
But lately I’ve felt like a hypocrite
Hiding behind those words–
‘Cause really it seems like I’m falling apart.

I say I’m fine, but I’ve been havin’ some struggles.
I say I’m fine, but I’ve been losin’ my battles.
I say I’m fine, but I’m giving in to despair.
I say I’m fine, but I’m falling away from God.

I’ve been fightin’ with my mom,
And my dear ol’ dad once questioned me:
“What happened to my happy little girl?”
All I can think is that happy girl died
And she’s not coming back. . .
But still I say I am doing just fine.

I say I’m fine, because it’s hard for me to talk.
I say I’m fine, because I think I can fix it.
I say I’m fine, ’cause I’m hoping it’ll be done soon.
But I can’t seem to shake it, I don’t have the strength.

I don’t like when others ask
How my walk with God is comin’ ‘long;
But I know that they ask because they care,
And that it’s for my own good, to keep me
From this place of hiding,
Hiding behind the words of “I’m doing fine.”

So when I say I’m fine, ask me to explain why.
When I say I’m fine, dig just a bit deeper in.
Don’t always just accept my words and move right on.
You need to look harder, ’cause I’m not always “fine”. . .

~Julie Hochstetler, June 2018

These words (along with Truth Be Told) seemed fitting after my last post.

P.S. I can’t decide which I want to do first: a series of posts on Psalm 23 or a series of posts on Jonah. Which intrigues you more? šŸ˜‰

		
Julie

Julie

Hi, I'm Julie, a 17-year-old lover of books, music, and Jesus. I'm finishing up my junior year in high school (Abeka Academy) and have been blogging for two and a half years. I also co-publish a digital magazine called Priceless geared toward teen girls. My desire is to use my words to glorify my Saviour and to encourage you in your walk with God. I'd love to hear from you!

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Martha Hess
Martha Hess
4 months ago

Julie, thanks for sharing. There are many of us that, likely too often, hide behind those 2 lil words! Both of your next topics are tempting, maybe comfort of Psalm 23 first.

Win
Win
4 months ago

I think it would be very interesting to see your thoughts on Jonah